Poems

I am a gentle soul. I weep at the sound that the rain makes as it dances with the pavement. I break when others break. I am weak with awe at the sight of a sunset or the twinkling of softened lights. I am overcome with emotion at the mere thought of suffering. But I am intense too, even fearless sometimes. I do not hesitate to fight battles. I am full of wilderness and passion and scars that did not come to grace this body without tremendous sacrifice. I do not let the world tell me how to be. I am what I am.

Trust is a central part of all human relationships, including romantic partnerships, family life, business operations, politics, and medical practices. If you don’t trust your doctor or psychotherapist, for example, it is much harder to benefit from their professional advice. But what is trust? Here are some possibilities: • Trust is a set of behaviors, such as acting in ways that depend on another. • Trust is a belief in a probability that a person will behave in certain ways. • Trust is an abstract mental attitude toward a proposition that someone is dependable. • Trust is a feeling of confidence and security that a partner cares. • Trust is a complex neural process that binds diverse representations into a semantic pointer that includes emotion. Trust huh? I have long forgotten how to. I have given it to someone from my distant past only to be broken and spat on. But you never know. An amazing person may come in to your life and worthy of trust. I fell fo...

 This one is for someone  who keeps fighting this battle alone. This one is for you: I know you may feel exhausted from constantly pushing through everything all by yourself,  because you do not open up to people,  because people just do not care,  because you feel like nothing could ever help you. You are doing great. I just want you to know  that there is always someone who cares,  someone who wants to listen  and someone who adores you just the way you are. Do not give up  because you feel as if you are alone in this,  because you are not. Just look around —  look around and see how many beautiful souls there are who want to fill you with nothing but light.

Someone once said to me "I don't know how you did it, staying with your wife the whole way through." To this day I'm stunned over that. There was no way I would have done anything else. I never considered myself strong or brave, most things in life scare the shit out of me, but I will always protect those closest to me because doing the right thing, it's just what you should do you know. Never stay in an abusive relationship but also remember in a normal relationship not every day will be kittens and rainbows. Sometimes one or the other of you will be off your game.  Remain steadfast in your love. Storms in life will always come and go but its sure easier to weather them when two people believe in each other. Maybe I am strong. I don't know. I just know what's right and I do that.

You won't understand, you can't understand. What it's like in our heads. It's so much I can't really explain it. I listen to music, the silence, it's deafening. That high pitched whistle. Tinnitus. But there's the other things, a tap dripping, a pen clicks, a fan whirrs, oh how I hate fans. The music, it stops some of the sounds.  The feel of things on my skin. Wool is the worst, it's like some sort of lava sandpaper. Denim, so unforgiving and rigid. It sits in hard pieces digging at me.  Soft, gentle. Yes.  My fingers. They need stimulation, they need to move, feel, touch. It helps my overloaded brain. Distraction. Slow it down. My brain, oh my addled brain. It takes in so much. And it's all separate, my brain doesn't go car, my brain goes blue Toyota Camry with one headlight more translucent than the other. Then multiply that by all the cars. It's working hard to process everything, all the time. Too many things and it overloads.  People. O...

Fuck the world and everything in it Live for the moments my friends You cannot find salvation at the bottom of a bottle or in the smoke of a bong, but its sure nice to be numb for a little Try to treat your body with kindness it’s the only one you will ever have, but make sure you get some use out of it too.  You can never agree with anyone all of the time but if theres more tears than laughter you are in the wrong place.  Do not marry your job, you can be replaced on a whim, loyalty is just a word with little meaning to your employer.   Settling is dangerous, you may miss something better. But then again, it beats lonely right? Be good in this world, you never know, maybe some of that kindness will come back one day Take the ramblings of silly old fools with a grain of salt. But maybe there is something in my words right? If you stop and listen to the rantings of a madman you just may find some truth amongst the insanity.

 When you finally look back and see all the things you sacrificed, the people you hurt and neglected including yourself, the money and time you lost and the mental deterioration that was the price of it all, you will never want to settle for a toxic, selfish, energy sucking vampire again.  You'll ask questions, you have those boundaries, and you'll be called a cold by many people who don't know what you went through. So what? Protect yourself anyway.

 A woman is in a bar, 3 men are surrounding her vying for her attention, buying her drinks. Another man comes in, walks to the bar close to where she’s sitting and orders a drink, he looks her way, smiles, nods and then goes to join his mates. The woman is no longer interested in any of the 3 men, she keeps looking to the man with his friends. Sometimes he looks over and gives her a nod or flashes her a smile. The next time he comes up to the bar she ditches the 3 guys and goes over to talk to him. The 3 guys are mad. “All the things we did for her, ugh, us nice guys finish last” A bunch of women are reading this, sighing, and going yeah. And a bunch of guys are reading this and being mad. Let me just let you know, if you are mad, you are a part of the problem. If me saying that makes you madder you really are the problem. Let’s switch to the woman’s viewpoint. Ugh, I was sitting at the bar and 3 guys were totally in my face, just pushing themselves on me, It was creepy, it felt… s...